What Does Your Soul Look Like

I just want to say that I am very glad to have been able to spend such a wonderful Christmas week with my girlfriend's family. They are so nice and polite. I am very thankful that I felt apart of the crew and I look forward to future visits. As for my own family, you all are a blast from my nephew to my aunt. Everyone brings a smile to my face and pure joy to my heart. Thank you for the gifts and the memories. I'm very blessed to be able to spend another Christmas with my older sister Aliya who had a tumor removed just a few weeks ago. We were all together and I thank everyone for their prayers and support. I can only wish and hope your holidays were just as awesome.

Bhutto is a martyr. The things people will do sometimes scares me.

~My Year End Review~

Well I was trying to think of something to help wrap things up. It's not easy since I didn't want to be so emo and be like oh what did I learn and crap. (I learned that I would be nothing without the women in my life.) I kind of wanted to do a personal best/worst list of things from this year. Probably the best way is to write a list for 2007/2008 and is to write it fast hope I cover what really matters. So here we go....

Best/Worst trips of 2007?
-The best would be visiting Kate in Topsail Island. It was three couples at the beach for a great weekend. I had so much fun. The worst would be my trip to VA Tech. It wasn't the visit but the drive back through a snow/ice storm in an uninsured rental. So not fun.
http://www.topsailbeach.org/

Best/Worst reads of 2007?
-The best would have to be anything by the great mutual fund manager Peter Lynch. I enjoy his writing style and he's so honest about the job. It makes me want to switch careers. The worst would have to go to every IRS letter I received this year. Thank you taxes.
http://www.investopedia.com/university/greatest/peterlynch.asp

Best/Worst music purchases of 2007?
-The best was anything by Feist. I will promote her again. I've bought two albums and already I shot a film based off one of her songs. Worst purchase....I never make bad music purchases though some of the FREE i-Tune songs I downloaded I really should delete.
http://www.myspace.com/feist

Best/Worst news story of 2007?
-The best would go to the Prehistoric shark they found alive (minutes before it died.) I thought that was the coolest thing ever and I love it when the impossible happens, like the 720 dunk. Worst story ever? Paris Hilton going to jail, though honestly I went out of my way to find out what was happening. We've hit a new low.
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2007/01/070124-sharks-photo.html

Stock pick for 2008?
-Yes, its about the stock market. This past year has been a crash course in the stock market and I feel that its about time for me to speak up with confidence. My tips for 2008 are TECH stocks, especially Apple (AAPL) and Google (GOOG). You can't go wrong, seriously. And....my favorite WellCare Health Plans (WCG). Here is a strong company financially with little debt its under priced even now thanks to this past fall when the FBI raided its building causing the stock to fall 70%. Luckily still no news about why it happened has been released and the stock is on a rebound rising from $20 to $41 in just two months. It was at $120 before the raid. Think about it.
http://finance.google.com/finance?client=ob&q=WCG

Still sucks in 2007 and probably will in 2008?
-American University (ranked #85), honestly it has some great schools but too many full time professors that don't really teach. Oh and when they tried to kick me out of AU because my GPA was too low and they didn't think I could raise it...well this past semester I got 2 "A's" and 1 "B". That means I took a big dump on your theory, Mr. John Douglass and raised my GPA. I expect crappy classes in '08, a thesis that will make me rethink my career and a degree that will mean nothing until 20 years from now. Once an Eagle always an Eagle.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/American_University
http://colleges.usnews.rankingsandreviews.com/usnews/edu/college/rankings/brief/t1natudoc_brief.php

Still rocks in 2007 and probably will in 2008?
-I wanted to give this to "adult swim" or Justin Timberlake but Kanye West deserves it the most. His new album and mix tape is amazing. He takes a lot of heat but his style is so different I have to respect it. Win your Grammy's bro and keep making music for all of us.
http://www.kanyeuniversecity.com/

My New Year's Resolution is to be in better shape next New Year's Eve then I will be this year. My family makes fun of my beer belly, its small but its there. I could do better. Financial stability would be another one, but let's do this one step at a time. I hope I finally buy a decent camera next year.

So everyone please keep making me laugh. Thanks for the great web videos of people doing stupid and creative stuff. I love your artistic styles and your taste in music. Girls stay beautiful. LA hopefully I will stop by this summer. I vote FREE PORN for everyone. Try to recycle and I'll see you in '08.

Cheers.


PS> Oh does anyone else play Virtual Stock Exchange by MartkWatch? Let me know.
http://vse.marketwatch.com

Cause the truth is all there is...

I know more then I knew before. Thank you for breaking my heart.

Feist is so amazing. When I am going to travel I buy new music. Last night it was "The Reminder" and I love it. There are more singles to come from her. I hope she wins some Grammy's for honestly being beautifully talented. Favorite Tracks: "The Water" & "Past In Present"

Yes. I'm traveling!! It never happens. I'm flying solo to New Hampshire this weekend to spend time with my girlfriend's extended family. Should be a good time. A little awkward but a good time. It's a small town and kind of reminds me of Herndon back in the mid 90s without Reston.

Boo to rising ticket prizes for movies. More then $10? Are you serious? Inflation! Really. Some how I feel I'm being ripped off. Movies are really not getting any better except when it comes to computer graphics and stuff. Will you go to a movie if it costs $20 a ticket? I suggest you ask yourself now before its too late. These days you might as well wait until the DVD comes out. Man I need to go see more movies.

"One Evening" my new film is about 80% done. We're still editing but its coming along. I'm still having second thoughts about the industry. I might just stick with the editing thing and hope it pans out. Also I still need to do a thesis film. Any ideas?

I started playing World of Warcraft again. Even running my own guild which is growing steadily, Man Bear Pigs. Yes. I'm a geek but the new commercials really sold me on the idea. Plus Leif suggested I play during winter break because of no school and that my girlfriend would be up north. Basically now I stay up to 4 am almost every night since there is no one to tell me to go to bed. Oh god, the addiction....but seriously its keeping me busy. Besides its a reward for the off chance that I might actually get all A's this semester. It would be a first.

Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant?!? Honestly its a reflection on their parents. I blame them. But Jamie congrats and thank you for being honest. I wish you the best. I usually don't write about celebrities but this one made me sad. Not the kind of sad when I found out that Jessica Alba was pregger but a different kind of sad thats depressing like a lost cause. Remember when Beyonce's little sister had that hit single and then got pregnant? Makes me wonder if Beyonce was pregnant at one point and something happened...cough cough..to the baby. We all know Beyonce doesn't fall either. I'm not hating. I too love her and enjoy her music. I just find it interesting. Its the story of little sister following big sister only does things a little too hard. Reminds me of a story from high school. Don't worry I'll keep it short....back in high school I was in a bunch of different clicks and this one group was filled with kids that were home schooled but outside of our church so I didn't really meet them or get to know them until my senior year, but i knew of them. Every click has that couple that is the perfect couple. Well at one party there is this gorgeous blonde that I had never seen. Total flirt and we all enjoyed it. Turns out one of my buddies was dating her. I was beyond surprised! He's an average joe and she was hot. Turns out she was the little sister of the girl from the perfect couple. Suddenly it all made sense and she wasn't that hot anymore. I still would flirt with her though.

I love Youtube. It's starting to get good again. For a while the humor was dry and the inspiration was missing. Keep making stuff guys. Hill88, I love you. I think I'm going to start making the The Cobrasnake Dead Season videos again, but I'm going to stick to the spontaneous way of making them. Maybe use music by The Album Leaf? Here is a link to one my most popular Cobrasnake videos: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaXLlXiKE-U

I sucked at fantasy football this year. I blew hard. But let's talk about Baltimore who blew harder then all of us when they lost to Miami! Miami for goodness sake! I was to looking forward to the ultimate match up between the Pats and the Dolphins. A 14-0 vs 0-14 and I wanted that to be the upset! Thanks for blowing a crazy season for all of us. I hope you loose the rest of your games. Miami please beat the Pats. With your record busted theirs should be too. Besides they tied the Miami season record. They need this win. GO TITANS!!!

Hopefully I will be writing my Year End review next time. It's been a good year. Up and down but positive. Cheers.


PS> I wrote a note to myself (I do this very often) about posting this in my next blog. I don't remember why but its something about people blowing up over racial jokes. Living life a little too seriously....

"They didn't want an apology," Keith added. "They wanted me out of there so they could launch the aftermath."

An investigation by campus authorities found that Keith had no intention of making a racist threat. No matter. He was on his way to being tarred as the campus arch-racist.

College officials declined to comment Friday but referred me to a statement saying they have no authority over hiring and firing of student newspaper staff members.

"We are angry," Lisa Dean, president of Association of Black Collegiates, a student group, told the Star Tribune for an article about the incident. "If we do not nip it in the bud, it will spread and a lot of students may not want to attend this college because of racism."

At the P.C. circus' surreal climax, Keith unknowingly walked into a protest rally where a crowd vented outrage at his bigotr. Meanwhile, administrators scrambled to use the incident as a "chance to educate our students."

Educate about what? You guessed it: "We want to educate around cultural understanding," Laura Fedock, interim associate vice president for academic and student affairs, told the Star Tribune. "We need to teach each other when something is offensive."

One wonders: Are students learning anything else?

How did Keith's light-hearted "get-your-assignments-in-on-time" joke flip the outrage switch?

The thinly veiled secret is that an incident like this is a godsend to campus political posturers and must be milked for all it's worth.

Today, a favorite college pastime is fanning the flames of grievance. Victimhood is a tremendous source of moral power, and being outraged and oppressed is a sure bet to get your picture in the paper -- displaying a look of grave concern for all humanity.

Keith points out the irony of using him as a device for such self-dramatization.

His best buddy in Iraq was a black Marine who fought side by side with him through three tours of duty, he says. "He wouldn't have had anything to do with me if I were a racist."

C is for Christmas

The holidays are the best. Time with my family and friends has been great. Count your blessings. Call your friends. Call your family. Go ice skating. Celebrate the holidays and eat lots of cookies.

Well I found myself standing in the ocean, deep enough that the salty water had soaked the tips of my shorts. The wind was blowing from the south and he was standing next to me, watching me fight back the tears. Thrusting my hands into my pockets I gazed over the horizon. No ships. No dolphins. Just clouds. "So how is she?" he asked. "Well. Sleeping a lot but well." Silence fell once again. The lapping of the ocean waves seemed to get louder and I swore I could hear the sand roll across my feet. "You care a lot about your family. You all do. It's very easy to see." "I know. We're close," I said shifting my feet from under the sand. "They are your strength. Much more then you realize." "That's true," I replied. "Then what are you going to do since you did not loose your strength?" "What I need to do," I said knowing very well that I had no clue what it was.

Don't even get me started on Fantasy Football. It was a bad year enough said. Hopefully the Titans will make the play-offs and Dallas will win the Super Bowl. Here's a hint... only play in leagues with 16 teams or less.

I'm currently working on a new short film I shot a couple of weekends ago. Yes I know I have like three unfinished films, but this one is for class so I had to shoot it. It's supposed to be a real cute feel good story but is nothing of the sort. Sometimes a film will want to tell its own story and changes. There is a story there but I have to find it. Stuff like this makes me wonder what I'm doing. Am I chasing a fantasy or a goal? Is this something I'm good at or am I just playing around? All in all, I think I need a mentor the most. Someone who will make me want to quit. Maybe everyone goes through this. Honestly I really wanted to rag on how sloppy the shoot went and how so many things fell apart, but to be honest most of it was my fault and if I was more direct and firm it would have been better. Besides it was a rush job and I don't feel like calling people out. What's done is done, I'll fix it in post.

Hey, I really want to see Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings in concert at the Black Cat. Anyone interested? They are playing in January.

Went to a dance performance this weekend. Great show all around. I enjoy inspiration and I found some. Thank you. I guess the oddest part is seeing people that you never speak to. I ran into her again. We've been saying hello for years now. I do not really know her. I guess that moment may have passed years ago, but apart of me is happy that we keep in touch with a friendly hello. You are such an elusive girl.

My sister is well. Peace.


PS>

Due to the craziness that is my life and that I spend so much time online. I'm trying to cut back. So I'm going to stop posting on some of my blogs and focus everything to one spot. Thank you for stopping by or keeping up with my blog. I really write these for myself to read years from now but the fact that you read them and comment, helps. Yeah...so this my last post here. Check out for weekly updates at my new blog:

http://iheaden20.blogspot.com/

To find out what is going on in my life. One love. Make art.

If you want to find out which blogs I'm shutting down and read back of the past like 3 years here are their links. Enjoy. (I post the same thing to every blog, so if you see one you've seen them all.)

Xanga - http://www.xanga.com/punkyspiderman
LiveJournal - http://nosehairpro.livejournal.com/
Myspace - http://www.myspace.com/isaiahphoto
holfilmgirl

Happy Birthday to me....

My birthday was this yesterday, so this is my Birthday/Christmas List:
Hooded Sweatshirt (Really Cool Looking)
300 (The Movie) - DVD
i-Pod Touch
Long Sleeve T-Shirts
Room Heater
iTunes Gift Cards
Trump: How to Get Rich
The Warren Buffet Way, 2nd Edition
Titans Jersey (Thanks girlfriend!!)

We're all getting old these days. Well what have I learned these past 24 years. Well life is too short to do what other people say. In the end its up to you. I'm not saying don't listen to them. I'm saying its your life.

Man, I hate getting sick. Its too draining. When you were a kid you could stop for a moment and spend a couple of days in bed. Now. I can't afford to get sick. I still have to get up and go. I get to stay in bed only if it is sooo bad that I can't move. At that point. Even breathing hurts. So for some words of wisdom. If you start to feel it. Take some Airborn. That stuff really works.

I feel like I failed my Little. Sorry bro. I should have been there when they said no. I should have been there when it felt like they turned their backs. I should have gone with you.

My sister's surgery is during the week after Thanksgiving. More to come later. Please keep her in your prayers. The hard part is coming up.

Kanye's new Mix Tape rocks! Let me know if you want a copy.

Peace.

Bittersweet Poetry

"If the next generation of black filmmaking proves successful in uniting America through the power of cinema, then it will be a life worth living and movie ticket worth paying for."

It's my newest favorite quote. Just had to post it somewhere.

In the mornings I watch Cartoon Network's "My Gym Partners a Monkey" and seriously its one of my favorite shows right now. I'm such a kid. "Pokemon" on saturdays. No lie. They started playing the old episodes (like when Pokemon first came out). Good times. Surprisingly my girlfriend watches it with me. Cartoons are happy. I could use happy.

I don't eat. I don't sleep. Something is not right about this. I just have less then a year. I tell myself. Some how I must go on. It's not even an option anymore. I can't quit. Whatever is on the other side better for me and everyone in my life. I know it. I feel it. There is more then one way to climb a mountain but this is the best way. What excuses and lies do I make up for me to continue to dig this hole? Is it not about the end but the journey? Then my friend it has already been worth it.

Just celebrated my one year anniversary with my girlfriend. It doesn't feel like a year and of course its my longest relationship. Right now she's one of the few people that actually gets me. Sees what I do and what monsters I fight. She knows all my hopes and dreams and I tell her everything. It's cold out here and she's keeping me warm. Also I'm a lot more foolish when she's not around. I hope at the least I do the same for her.

Good music to download....
"Waiting In Vain" - Bob Marley
"Hospital Beds" - Cold War Kids
Any song by the classic rock band - Can

My sister is doing well. She's having the surgery. I don't know when yet. I'm going home for those days. It gets easier to process once I understand the situation. I'm kind of saving all the emotion for later and keep it positive for now. We don't call her Champ for nothing.

Ah yes the skies are getting darker and the trees are finally turning colors. It must finally be fall. Oh my. I love Halloween. The parties are great and its always good to see the GMU Pi Kapps. Besides everyone shows a little creativity. My favorite was the people I saw in the street dressed up as the cast of Harry Potter. I mean everyone! It was 20 people walking down the street dressed up like they just stepped out of the movie. So sweet. Also 2nd place goes to the Mario Kart group picture I found online. 3rd the female 300 Spartans. So hot though there was only two of them.

So my Mom calls me selfish. I'm not sure what she meant so I guess I'm selfish. She's one of those people in your life that everything she says is wisdom, even if you choose to listen to her or not. I went to AU because of her. I have a real job because of her. I might as well have her arrange my marriage. Anyway...the point is I feel trapped and confused and honestly its not that I don't care. It's that I feel like I grew up and no one else realizes it. It's almost like being a pre teen and trying to do things on your own only to have your parents send you to bed at 8pm. My house. My rules. (There is so much I can say at this point so I'm going to try and just spit it out. If I forget something or don't cover a point correctly. I'm sorry.) I grew up in a box. My family went to a church for 20 years. I was home schooled. We thought one way and lived one way. I was sheltered and lied to. Some of us still refer to the whole experience as being in a cult. I still believe the good times were real and the people I met are real too. Well like I said it was box. People trying to control the vertical and the horizontal and you lived in it. Well I'm not in it any more and haven't been it for a while. I understand why my parents did what they did and it was a success to a point. They sacrificed and did what they felt was right. I thank them. It made me...me. Gave me a different angle on life (which I can use in my films.) What I'm trying to get at is that people are people and what I assumed to be as a kid was mostly wrong. Its like watching a Disney movie ten years later and picking up on all the adult humor that you missed as a kid and how racist these films really are. My favorite line so far is when Jasmine's father states that her mother wasn't that picky. I laughed out loud. Man is man and you should always remember that. A lot of the issues we face are self made issues. The pits we're in were dug by us. Surprise! You reap what you sow! It's not that I don't care its that I'm not going to worry about it. You do you and I will do me. The love doesn't change. People don't change. I expect to get to the top no matter what and I will pull my family out of most of their holes. I will do for this family what most of my uncles have failed to do. I will lead, unite and care for. Everyone is trying their best, no doubt, but no one is on time. I'm sorry that I care about being on time. I'm sorry I care about being diligent. Of course I fail at it too but I will get to it before you do. I will clean up after myself, fix broken things and teach myself what I need to know. I have bills to pay and I work a lot. I don't get many free weekends. Am I doing too much. Yes. It is my fault. Buy I am not free enough to take care of two homes and pay for two household bills. It doesn't mean I don't care. It means I'm 24 years old trying to be the first kid in our family to really make it on their own.

Please father teach me to lead. Peace.

PS> A whole year and I still realize how much I don't know about her, her family, relationships and love. So for all my trapped married friends....wow. God be with you and remember even professional athletes have coaches.

Strawberry Fields

Peter's Principle #3: "Never invest in any idea you can't illustrate with a crayon."

I've spent the hours that I ride the bus back and forth from work reading books mostly about finance. This is probably one of the best quotes from this year's reading list. I just wanted to put it out there.

Lately I've had trouble writing my notes. I've been too tired. To unfocused on the simple things. I miss it. Putting my ideas down for myself to read later. I documented so much of my college life. So I thought why not continue. Why not prove how much I suck. I'm so emo.

Football. (Sorry I'm just not that into baseball) Fantasy Football is not my friend right now. I'm in two leagues and I'm choking. Also it was slightly annoying that Payton Manning was in that many commercials last year but now this year. Its just beyond stupid annoying. TOO MANY!! Seriously, I will refuse to buy products that he promotes. Besides Tom Brady is Jesus.

I just want to say to that pretty girls make the world go round. I just want to thank you for brightening my classes, bus rides and web surfing. If you are a pretty girl pat yourself on the back. If you used to be. Well....shit happens. Get over it.

Have you noticed on the classic Star Trek episodes that the women are smoking hot. Maybe its just the lightening but I'm usually impressed. I mean seriously the original Star Trek is about frat guys in space, but wow...to be Kirk with all those hot mamas.

Does anyone have great stories about their perfect one night stands? I'm writing a short film about it. Hopefully I will get to make it for class. Come on someone be my MUSE!

I'm thinking about switching my cell phone plan from AT&T to Verizon. Please let me know if you have Verizon or not cause who I call the most will play a major factor. Oh...and my current phone is broken. I can't answer calls. So leave a message or text me. Right now my best form of contact is Facebook. Isn't that sad.

Well I had lunch at Chipotle with an old friend last week. It was good to see her since it had been a couple of years. The conversation was more questions and answers then anything else. I guess its something I should expect. Its about catching up and not so much experiencing life together. How are things? Good I guess. I thought about how it would have gone if we were both single. I'm sure something about meeting up later would have been offered. A chance to walk down memory lane, yet in that moment. It didn't cross my mind. We're truly friends.

I like how I tried to go to bed at 1am and then Cowboy Bebop comes on. Great. Now I have to stay up and watch this. So irresponsible. I stay up too late, therefore I am tired.

I'm upset with some of my ex girlfriends right now. You guys are not taking care of yourselves or playing like champs and its making me look bad. Most guys appreciate it when another guy points out a chick and you're like yeah I used to date her and he high fives you. It's not a good thing when people find out that we used to date and they laugh at me. Claiming that I lost respect points with them or that I have no taste in women.

Reason #42 - She's the kind of girl you can bring home to mom.

For all you haters out there. You don't get it. I get along with her. I want spell it out for you but I think its a waste of my time. You're too quick to judge and I shouldn't point out your flaws. Its unfair. In the end...what you think really doesn't weigh much. It's a relationship between two people. Not 400.

My birthday is less then a month away. I'll be 24. Peace.


PS> When I heard about the news. All I wanted to do was give you a hug. The world seems too small these days. How fragile we are, yet I see brother you are strong. My prayers are with you.

Welcome my October

"Spock's Beard - A slang expression used mostly by Star Trek fans to indicate a concept that's so outlandish as to belong to another, warped universe. The term originates with the episode Mirror, Mirror of the Star Trek original series, where four Enterprise officers are exchanged with their counterparts in an alternate universe; the alternate version of Spock has a goatee." - Wikipedia

On Sunday, in the background I had a NFL game playing loudly. The announcer said something I thought I would never hear. "Next week...they play the undefeated Green Bay Packers." I was instantly sent into shock. I guess hell will be freezing over soon and I thought, "Spock's beard!"

Well this is the part where I suck it up and die trying. I've been too busy. Like at the point where you miss family events and stand people up who you were supposed to meet with weeks ago. I wake up sore and tired these mornings. Even right now I'm sore. Thanks to a diving interception I had at football practice last saturday my knees are killing me. I'm not sure Pi Kapp Mountain Day is a good idea, so I may need to train this week. Fellas, we're getting old and its only a sign that I cannot let my foolishness get the best of me.

I just want to say that the Jimmy Kimmel and Matt Damon gags have been hilarious. I love them so much. Such boyish humor.

NEW MUSIC MONDAY: Well sort of. I'm a little slow. Feist, you know the woman from the nano ipod commericals. "1...2..3..4..?" Well, thanks to MTV2 I saw the music video months ago and loved it. Music videos filmed in one take are the best. I LOVE Feist. She's bringing sexy back to Canada. Her music is amazing. Basically she is doing her own thing and rocking at it. But seriously "Let It Die" is one of those albums you should have bought like two years ago. My favorite song right now is "One Evening" and I've been watching the music video on repeat. I'm even writing a script based off the music video! Wow that's crazy! Yeap, so go buy here new album, "The Reminder." You won't be disappointed.
http://www.myspace.com/feist
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqVKOilZO2A

I shot another film this past weekend. 16mm black & white. Once again the reasons to shoot with video out weigh the reasons to shoot with film. I'm sure everything will come out great, but when you are shooting action packed Pakour chase scenes you need more then two cameras! Film is expensive video is not.

Well, today is the 11 month anniversary of my relationship with my girlfriend. Pretty soon I will have to buy her something expensive and still have to take her out to dinner. Oh what fun. We celebrated this morning over microwaveable breakfast sandwiches with OJ and toast. Honestly, it doesn't feel like its been 11 months. I'm having too much fun. I was looking back at my past relationships wondering why they couldn't break the 3 month barrier. I guess it takes two to tango and when one party is just not that interested in a relationship, people get bored and leave. You got to want to seriously try. I guess I'm just looking forward to simpler days where the bull shit of being young doesn't affect the morals of others. Right now I'll just continue to enjoy her company and input in my life. Life is too short to make things complicated and she's perfectly simple enough for me. I hope I am for her.

Let's go Titans.

Peace.


PS> Keep praying for the Ladybug.

Ladybug Fields Forever

Thursday nights. The new Friday. I get home from a long day that just made it a long week. I think about tomorrow being Friday and that I don't have to go to class after work. Honestly its one of the best feelings.

Crap. I forgot how much I hate HW. So much of it is just to keep you busy. That's it! Those of you who want to be teachers. Do me a favor and come up with HW that actually helps. Really try please. I so want to rewrite how the system works so bad. Apprenticeships is the way to go. I swear.

Well I have three jobs. Sorta. My day job is with Georgetown Post which is not a paper but a video editing house. Where I edit videos and do other post stuff. Pretty cool. The other is a graphic designer for Rudeness Clothing. We're currently working on their second line. I'll post pictures when the shirts come out early next year. Hard work. Really. The third is a producer for the website VIMBY. In simple words its a start up and things haven't really kicked yet, but we shall see. I think its going to be big for a while on the West coast. Anyways....the way I got it set up is that my main job pays the bills and my other jobs give me that extra cash to get over the hump. But my main ISSUE here is how fast I burn my spending cash. WOW slow down. I budget and balance my checkbook, so I'm not spending rent money but I do have a discretionary fund that almost never makes it through a weekend. Its about self control people!

Um...did anyone see B.Spears on the VMA Awards (which sucks period but wasn't too bad this year. I wanted more Kanye for some reason.) Anyways...Spears is back or some really washed up version of her. She can't move. Can't dance. She needs to walk away from the game and try something new. I'm sorry babe. But your teenage years are behind you. Unlike Fergie who didn't rise until her 30s. You're done. Now go raise your kids....oh wait. You might loose them. Think twice about making your kids superstars at the age. They pay a price that most can't afford.

Music you should download: "Debbie" by Architecture In Helsinki

I'm trying to draw up that inspiration which produces the greatest of art. I'm trying to surround myself with that knowledge. Expect great things. I love it when people leave comments about my work.

Oh, no news yet on my sister. But the tests are done. We're just waiting to hear the results. Thank you all for the positive feedback. It is comforting knowing that there are so many people praying for my family. I will pass on your good karma to my sister. If anyone is wondering about the ladybugs. Well she really loves ladybugs.

In France, if you are sick and a ladybug lands on you, when it flies away, it will take the sickness with it.

Hope.

The Fullmetal Artist

A turtle was happily swimming along a river when a scorpion hailed it from the shore. "Dear friend turtle!" called the scorpion. "Please let me climb upon your back and swim me to the other side of the river!" "No," replied the turtle, "for if I do, you shall sting me, and I shall die." "Nonsense!" replied the scorpion. "If I kill you in the middle of the river, you shall sink, and I shall drown and die with you." The turtle thought this over, and saw the truth of the scorpion's statement. He let it upon his back and began swimming towards the other side of the river. Halfway across, he felt a sharp pain in the back of his neck. "Why have you stung me?!" cried the turtle as his body began to stiffen. "Now you shall die as well!" "Because it is in my nature," replied the scorpion as the turtle sank beneath the waters.

This was for me. Last weekend's fiasco of being hospitable should be a lesson learned. Labor Day weekend was one of those holidays I really needed. Good times hanging with friends and family. Catching up on my sleep debt and spending some quality time with the best girl in the world, was so worth it. Things won't be like that for a while.

These mornings I feel that I am getting sick. I think its my girlfriend's fault. Oh the fall must be here too. The allergies. Augh. Its like the last thing I need on my plate. So much to do and so little time. Work. Work. Work.

Music free me. Man, Sublime is one great band. They are definitely a hidden treat on my I-Pod Shuffle. (When you get a chance look up the I-Pod Touch. Its new. Its basically a super i-pod/i-phone without the phone part.) Well I've finally received a new CD from a friend of mine. We trade music hoping to inspire one another's tastes. Kind of special, so now you got me listening to Ratatat's song "Wildcat". Oh it makes me want to make music.

I know this is old news but why are you hating so much on Mike Vick? We all know the Vick boys can't seem to stay out of trouble. The worse part of being rich and famous is easily being media targets. They report on every little thing you do blowing it out of proportion so that us normies look down on you as if we would never do the same. But everyone pick's a poison at some point. I just think that you can't hate on Vick hard core and not take the time to save one of the dogs. Come on 53 dogs will be put to death if they don't find a home. (Actually I think they may have already.) If you really have the heart you should take one of these killing machines and play fetch. http://www.usatoday.com/sports/football/2007-08-22-1015712039_x.htm

So when did High School Musical take over the world and rule Disney like no other? I haven't seen it but I still don't think its worth the hype.

Dejavu I said. My legs stretched out and my hands upon my head. I was leaning back in my plastic chair listening to the conversation. Chris Palmer had made a joke about torturing his students and sure enough everyone in the class laughed. It was funny but not so much the second time around. Here I was. Sitting in a class I have taken before. Literally. This is an update about AU. The full one is coming later, but I'm back. Basically the probation they were originally suppose to give me has finally been granted. I need all A's and good grades for the rest of the school year and in the summer of 2008 I will finish my MA in Film & Video. I will be able to put education behind me and not deal with this total bs school money making system no more. But I'll be in debt for years to come. Come on Virginia Lottery. Bring it to me.

Why do I stay up so late? Must be a bad habit from college. Like drinking.

Peace.


PS> My creative forces are pushing the limits of my will. The eggs breaking. No it is hatching. Let's see what bright Phoenix arises. Yes indeed...the clothes, the music, the photos and the videos. Let it begin.

Cocaine Monkeys Die Harder

As a new school year begins (hopefully my last for the rest of my life) lets not forget others. Let's dedicate this year to "serving others."

So in the message of serving others with this coming Welcome Week upon us, so I post this.

"When people mix cocaine and alcohol consumption, they are compounding the danger each drug poses and unknowingly forming a complex chemical experiment within their bodies. NIDA-funded researchers have found that the human liver combines cocaine and alcohol and manufactures a third substance, cocaethylene, that intensifies cocaine's euphoric effects, while potentially increasing the risk of sudden death." http://www.nida.nih.gov/Infofacts/cocaine.html

I just want you to know. I'm watching and listening and I will do what I need to. To protect the ones I love.

I am only frustrated with myself and my inability to turn my blogging into vlogging. I want to make more videos. Senseless humorous ones. Too bad all my video friends moved to LA and left me alone with a camera. I must break this spell and express myself through the visual art form which I claim to know. I met a guy named John. Young cat from Maryland who may be into video more then I. I need to call him.

New pictures of my room will be up soon. I think its pretty much done for now. Maybe missing a shawl here or there. Just need to hang my Spider Man movie poster.

Question. Anyone know anyone they trust who works or knows a lot about Credit Cards? I'm thinking about getting one for special purchases where they charge you extra for using your debit card and not a credit card. Let me know.

Once again I say. Some people shouldn't breed.

Sometimes I just want to be able to freeze time. Enough with these phone calls of bad news. "Let's wait and talk in person. I can't tell you now." Thanks for leaving me in the clouds wondering what the hell could of happened.

These days I'm working a lot. I'm learning, but still getting my ass kicked. Most of this stuff they don't teach you in college. The more and more I think about it I feel that 60% of your college is a system to rip you off. Don't get me wrong. Some professions you need to go to college, but I'm starting to feel that the practical ones or art related ones you don't really need too. A job or an apprenticeship would work better. I may look into changing the rules once I get to the top. Screw the system.

Ladies. I have a friend. Well maybe not a friend, but someone who I've gotten to know a little bit this past year. Its enough to say that I know her and I am beginning to understand her more. As a person. What to expect and where to not place my hope. Here is the issue. Why do girls love bad boys? Guys that treat them like jerks? It's amazing how far just lying and saying the things she wants to hear will get you. I try hard to do the right thing. Most of the time I fall short but the effort is usually rewarded. So how come Joe Blow who doesn't give a damn and holds enough common sense as 12 year old boy gets what I get. Sometimes more. I guess the best way to look at it is that their are fish who live in shallow waters. Though easily visible they do not keep you well fed.

Feeling like I'm drowning in it. I know its good for me. God, these days all I want is a cigarette.

Fantasy Football time. Wish me luck. Peace.

PS> So when does your relationship turn from being serious to serious. Real to real. Yeah the truth hurts but half the time you just need to forget and forgive.

I Am The Cricket King

So I moved into my new place. Oh. I'm excited. Its going to be an adventure says my Mom. Yes it is. I love the neighborhood. I'm still working on getting my room up to speed. Its dark and activates my allergies a little. Yeap! Going to require an air filter and dehumidifier. I'll make it work. Besides if you ask me the room is looking pretty pimp now. Thank you Ikea and thank you girl friend for your helpful tips. Now on to the good part! When we were first looking at this house I walked around the basement and found two Spider Crickets (aka Camel Back Crickets). At the lease signing I mentioned this to the Property Manager and asked for an exterminator. She claimed it cost too much and that I must be sure that there is an infestation. So she did nothing. A few weeks later I moved in. Not to my surprise. Turns out that I had three roommates. An infestation of little Black Centipedes, Spider Crickets and House Centipedes who eat Spider Crickets. Though all harmless (sort of since the House Centipede can bite) the Spider Crickets freaked me out. The walls of my room are stone and they blend in perfectly. You don't notice them until its too late. They jump like 3-4 feet in the air and are ugly. So for three days I killed them and slept on the futon in the center of my room. Then I called the Manager and demanded an exterminator. He finally showed up last Monday and did his thing. (What kind of exterminator can't tell the difference between a Silverfish and House Centipede?) Since then Kate and I have been finding numerous insects half dead crawling across the floor. Thanks to the can of Roach Kill, we've been helping them along to the after life. Lesson to be learn. If you see one bug that doesn't look like it should be there. Protest and make them spray the place before you move in. No matter what.

Another fun story. So I blacked out at the bar five Saturday nights ago and my boys carried me home. Well the following morning at Morty's Deli in Tenleytown I offered to pay for their meals. Which everyone was cool with. So the bill came out to be like $120 and the other guys who joined us for breakfast but missed out on the "black hawk down" paid for themselves. Seeing that we were a party of ten I assumed that gratuity had been factored and signed my half of the payment and split. Two days later looking up my bank records I find that my card was charged 25% more then it was supposed to be. That bastard charged my half of the payment his 18% of the total bill though...it was split between four people. SO two things! (1)Pay for your meals and drinks at restaurants with CASH. So when you leave with a receipt. Thats it. No more taking money from you. (2) I'm boycotting Morty's. Too bad cause I even liked the place and I know what you are thinking. Don't worry. He wasn't jewish.

Fantasy Football is coming up. I'm in two leagues. One is a Pi Kapp league which is always a good time. The second, my best friend and I set up so if you want in. Let me know.

Anybody have any PS2 games they don't want?

"Ex Mas Eve" by Vsevolod Horodyskyj would be a better film if it was a porn. The acting would be on key. Actually its not the acting's fault. Its the editor's fault. Learn how to pace a scene please. The cinematographer needs to go watch The Good The Bad and The Ugly again. This movie will help you understand when to use the close up. All in all. Not bad for a student film, but it does need more boyish humor. Oh and wtf is with the montage? It was also nice to see the Del Ray house. Oh the memories.

I hate mosquito bites. There are more of them at the new place and I blame it on the fact that we live closer to the zoo.

Well I'm broke broke. No money. Spent too much at Ikea and its cost a lot to rent a car and drive to NC to pick your girl friend up. At least its only 6 days until my next pay check. Keep smiling people.

Peace.

PS> I'm going to try out a new blogger website. Blogger.com! (Unless one of you people can give a good reason not too.) I've been using Xanga and Live Journal since my sophomore year in college. I think its time to move on to make it easier to post and focus more on my after college life. So here are the links to the blogs. If you don't agree with this YOU MUST PROTEST! Otherwise first say good bye to Live Journal and then Xanga.